Red, red wine

I do miss you... Especially when listening to Ray's song Hannah, this song needs a glass of wine with it.



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I'm HEALTHY and PREGNANT!

Today I had an appointment with my midwife. And as we went through my bloodpressure, weight and blood -results, I realised how lucky I am with having such a healthy body. Because apparently I am very healthy.

When I think about the way I have treated my body over the last 10 years, I feel really stupid and sad. All because I thought I was fat and wanted to be even more skinny. It's so easy to starve yourself, and really dumb.

So, last summer's diet, will be my last starving diet, permanently. Being almost 15 weeks pregnant, I gained 1,3 kg. Which isn't a lot, especially if you've seen me eat! But I kept it as healthy as possible. Having cravings for fries, doesn't make it easy so I only eat them once a week with really fat mayonnaise and I love those fries Sunday's. I also have cravings for fruits and vegetable's, which makes it really easy for me to fill my whole wheat bread. And I eat LOADS of bread.

I know I will gain about 12 kg and it doesn't even scare me. Because I know, when the baby's born, I will go on with the healthy food and will take the baby out for long nice walks :)

In hiding

The last six weeks, I've been hiding. Literally hiding in my house. I didn't feel well at all, could only hang on the couch, felt really hungry and sick at the same time. But I knew the cause: I'm pregnant, over 12 weeks now!

Yesterday we had our second ultrasound and saw our little birdy being awake and active. We're still not used to the idea we'll be having a baby this October. You see, we've been talking about babies over 10 years and now it suddenly isn't just talking anymore, its for real now. Also, I was very scared of having a miscarriage. I can't think of anyone who got pregnant easily and didn't at least have one miscarriage. So I banned myself from baby clothes and even dream about having this one. I felt like I needed to protect myself or something. But maybe that numb feeling will go away once we go babyshopping!

Is infertility the worst thing that could happen to you?

Since all of my friends seem to get pregnant, some the natural way, some with help from doctors, and since I got the baby fever as well, I can't help it wondering... is it really?